so scratch those last 2 posts...things don't always turn out the way you hope for them to. oh well, life goes on.

in bill and i breaking up, i got to be there with my maggie mae on her last days. that in itself means more than anything to me. my dog was my child, and i miss her terribly. words just can't seem to express the hurt i feel in losing her. she wil always be with us, in heat and in sight. her ashes sit on the mantle, so we never have to be without her.

also, in losing maggie, i think i gained back a part of me that has been gone for a while. i reconnected with someone i used to call my best friend. no, not lacy. it will never be lacy. it's christine. even though we used to fight like nothing else, she was a huge part of my life for a really really long time. she encouraged me to go back to school when i thought that would have been impossible. she and i have a lot of things to work through, but i'm happy to have her back. i don't know if we'll ever be the way we used to be, but at least she talks to me now....