oh so long ago....

is when i updated last. on my birthday....that was almost 6 months ago. i promise to keep you posted better from now on, blog. life is just getting in the way.

i started my new job yesterday...its not so fun, but what job that you took just to make til you're out of school is? and on the westbank?! what was i thinking? oh well, its just for a year and then i will be teaching!

im graduating in a year....wow. never thought that day would ever be so close! and i get to go to italy when i graduate! and then i get to teach, and applying to grad school....i'm determined to be the first person in my immediate family with a post-bac degree. help!

updating....

it has been entirely too long...i need to do better with this thing...

school started a month ago. 7 classes and lots of field experience....why do i want to be a teacher again? oh yea, something about influencing the minds of the future! ha! this is a lot of work for such little pay!

today....i'm 26. i don't undertsand. by this point, i had planned on being out of school, and married....maybe with a kid on the way. well...i'm still in school, single, living at home....kinda makes me feel like a loser. i just thought i would have accompliahed more with my life by now.

so....this birthday isn't as exciting as most....i just feel blah....

i just survived....

one of the scariest weeks of my life. i had some spots on my that my mom was worried about. especially after my dad had the melanoma last year and they told him he basically wasn't going to survive. (he did)

so last thursday i went to the dermatologist to have them removed, and there was one little freckle that the doctor was worried about. she had to cut it out, and i have 3 stitches in its place. the other 2, she just cut off.

anyway...

they were sent off to be biopsied and i was told it would take about a week to know any results. well, the doctor just called, and i DON'T HAVE CANCER!

it's such a relief to know that i don't have it. i don't know that i could handle the treatment and surgeries, i'm not that strong. but now i don't have to worry about it at all! i'm cancer free!

so scratch those last 2 posts...things don't always turn out the way you hope for them to. oh well, life goes on.

in bill and i breaking up, i got to be there with my maggie mae on her last days. that in itself means more than anything to me. my dog was my child, and i miss her terribly. words just can't seem to express the hurt i feel in losing her. she wil always be with us, in heat and in sight. her ashes sit on the mantle, so we never have to be without her.

also, in losing maggie, i think i gained back a part of me that has been gone for a while. i reconnected with someone i used to call my best friend. no, not lacy. it will never be lacy. it's christine. even though we used to fight like nothing else, she was a huge part of my life for a really really long time. she encouraged me to go back to school when i thought that would have been impossible. she and i have a lot of things to work through, but i'm happy to have her back. i don't know if we'll ever be the way we used to be, but at least she talks to me now....

life...

has been kinda stressful the last week or so.

my dog is sick. and we don't know how much longer she will be here. they know it's not her pancreas and that her gall bladder is inflamed, but she still could turn for the worse. yesterday she pooped for the first time in a week, so that was a big improvement. i'm still scared though.

the BF has been going through a lot with his job and friday they finally laid him off. so now he's stressed about money and i'm just tryintg to be the best girlfriend i know how to be. he knows he can come to me for anything and i will do everything in my power to help him. he's really talented at what he does, so i'm sure he won't be out of work for long. cross your fingers!

on a really good note....i bought his birthday present, and he's so excited about it. he keeps telling everyone (i'm bad at surprises, so he knows about it) wanna know what it is???

drumroll.....

i'm taking him to see DANE COOK!! (be jealous, abby! i get to see the thighs in person!) i'm really excited about it to. i also got him tickets for the chee weez at HOB on the 27th. he's such a groupie.

school started last thursday. only 3 summer classes, but man they have a lot involved in them. i have a paper due every monday for my old south class, and lots of quizzes in macroeconomics, and projects coming out of the butt for health and safety education. goodbye summer! hello books!

that's all for now....i'll update more later!

since everyone wants an update...

you can find it here.

I met a guy. A really great guy. Someone who makes me laugh and giggle like i haven't done in years. I know it's still early days, but honestly, i haven't been this happy in so long that i didn't think i could really ever be this happy again.

I have spent everyday with him, and i can't wait to spend more with him.

i have joined the cult

i now am the proud owner of an iphone. i finally gave in.

i was so excited about my impression. and it met me down. i send thousands upon thousands of texts a month and i need a phone that can keep up with me. the impression couldn't. i had to restart my phone like 5 times a day in order to get it to send texts.

so i gave in and got the iphone. and i am so happy that i did. i love it. it's amazing!


on another note....i'm very happy that school is finally over for a week. i needd a few days to defrag my brain. it was a long semester, but i am finally a junior. updates when grades are posted......so far:

-biology: A
-biology lab: B
-geography: C